Rolling out of the empty stillness of my king size bed last week, I couldn’t help but feel engulfed by a tidal wave of loneliness. No husband. No mom. No one around at all.
As I confessed to y’all in last week’s Monday Motivation, we all get those periods in our lives when we feel utterly and completely alone.
That hollowness of isolation, that we are, in fact, disconnected and removed from others despite the close proximity of neighbors, coworkers, and church community members.
But after that one day, really that one hour of absolute hopelessness I described to y’all last week, it’s like Jesus has been working overtime to show me how far from reality my feelings really were and are.
It’s like He grabbed hold of me, shaking me back and forth shouting, “Are you crazy?! I love you like crazy. And I’ve surrounded you with so many caring, encouraging people to remind you of My love every single day. I guess I’m going to have to snap you out of this ASAP.”
And boy did He. Loud and clear, He spelled out what the Psalmist wrote in 94:18, “…because you are precious to me and because I love you and give you honor, do not be afraid- I AM WITH YOU!”
Lesson learned, Big Man.
At nearly 32 weeks of pregnancy, my OBGYN has asked me to start tracking my son’s movements to try to find his most active times of day. She told me that if I can find an hour where I notice 10 movements, to make a note of that time.
Holy guacamole, batman, because that’s pretty much all day, everyday for the past few weeks.
I tell you this fascinating detail of my pregnancy as one of the countless ways God has been trying to remind me this week that I am 0% alone in my life and I never will be alone as long as I place my trust and faith in Him.
In the past week, I have been utterly overwhelmed by the support, encouragement, and outright love of friends, family, coworkers, and neighbors God has surrounded me with.
When I step back and consider all of the love notes God sent me this past week, it’s a little ridiculous (but in a wonderful way).
From phone calls to texts to people dropping by to brunch dates and a surprise prenatal massage to a dear family member hiring a crew to come clean up my embarrassing leaf mountain in my yard, I have felt so far removed from those initial feelings of despair that tiptoed into my heart nearly two weeks ago.
Like I mentioned last week, loneliness is a real thing, but too often we let it get the best of us when we misplace our sources of joy in our life.
When we take a second and evaluate our joy fuel and make sure we are appropriately sourcing it from Him and not our circumstances or other people in our lives, its like our perspection hits a reset and we can finally see the bigger picture of our lives.
Throughout scripture, God writes His love letter to us all. Unlike people in this world who will abandon us, even if for most wondrous reasons such as joining Christ in heaven, God reminds us time and time again He’s not goin’ nowhere. Take a gander at some of His countless reminders that He’s in it for the long haul:
From cover to cover, God writes His vows to us through the scripture. I love you. I will never leave you. I am here for you. Always.
If you ever doubt this promise, this vow He has made to us, I assure You He will find a way, or more likely dozens of ways, to open your eyes to how wrong you are.
And as a side note here, to the dozens of y’all that have reached out to me these past few weeks with the calls, visits, texts, acts of servitude to make my preggo life a little easier, meals, and other aspects of your love language, I am beyond grateful y’all have reminded me of the Love of Christ that abides in us all.
And with this said, that is where my challenge lies with y’all this week. Think of someone in your life- a family member, neighbor, coworker, friend- who may be feeling a little alone or abandoned. Believe me, the little things like rolling their trash can back to their garage on trash day and a text saying ‘I’m thinking of you’ will make all the different for them.
Reach out. Spread love. Let God’s love shine through you. Allow yourself to be an extension of His love language to the world.
Today’s Prayer: Father God, my Comforter, I am Yours and You are Mine. I praise You for Your ever presence. Forgive me when I doubt Your love. There are times when it is difficult to feel You by my side, but I know You are always near. When life’s storms besiege my soul, help draw me in to You. Today, this week, fill me with Your loving presence so I may be a vehicle of Your love letter to the world. I praise You. I love You. Amen.
Healthy Happy Texan
I'm a Foodie, Fitness Instructor, and Follower of Christ. Add a passion for teaching others, dark chocolate, bacon, and dogs -- and that's me in a box.
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