Whether we like it or not, our society is one that is all about instant results and instant gratification. We are a culture of Minute Rice and Easy Mac, not to mention liposuction and steroids. We love things to come easy (remember those Staples commercials with the easy button?), with minimal effort and time on our parts.
It seems every day things are getting faster and faster- faster Internet, faster downloads, faster recovery from surgery- it’s not all bad. However, when it comes to having to wait, it’s something that doesn’t always come naturally to us these days.
Don’t get me wrong, y’all, I’m a very patient person. God has taught me the best things in life are worth waiting for- finding my spouse after a rather dormant dating scene in high school, finding the right teaching job after having to bounce from school to school for four years straight, finding the right home to buy after 8 months of searching…
Time and time again, He has proven to me that He has something in store later down the road for me that is better than I could even imagine, yet didn’t always fall on my ‘ideal’ timeline and schedule.
Waiting for God to bless me with a child was certainly no exception to this rule.
Last November, my husband and I decided that we were ready to start trying to have a family. For the past ten years of my life, I had been taking hormonal birth control pills, so I knew that it could take a little while, thus I require some patience, for my body to figure out how to regulate itself without synthetic hormones.
Back in high school, I had some issue with irregular cycles….I talking five months off, one month on kind of irregularity. That’s what got me on hormonal birth control in the first place. While it got my body on a schedule, throughout college and into the past five years of my life, I have been on a cycle of two-three months off and one month on (I tell you all of this detail so you can better understand why it was especially difficult to know what was going on with my body as I waited and trusted God to help me become fertile).
After trying for a few months, my body still hadn’t regulated. I felt normal and couldn’t tell a difference after going off the pill. I started tracking my basal body temperature daily to help give me a slight clue as to what was going on. In a nutshell, your temperature increases before ovulation and then drops off before you start your delightful lady time….
Anyway, I tracked this throughout the winter without any luck of seeing a pattern to my cycle. I researched natural fertility remedies and loaded my Amazon cart with all sorts of teas, essential oils, supplements, and powders to try to naturally spur my body into regulation. I researched and researched what was normal for women after coming off the pill. I read articles and blogs, even listening to podcasts about natural women’s health and fertility.
Now I never got to the point where I was stressed about the process, and my husband was super cool as a cucumber the entire time, putting 0% pressure on me throughout the entire experience. However, I couldn’t figure out why my body couldn’t do the one thing it is designed to do! I prayed about it daily and wracked my mind around what I must be doing wrong...I slept plenty, ate healthy, stayed active, managed my stress, avoided tons of caffeine, sugar, alcohol, and processed junk…why wasn’t I getting pregnant? I was the poster child of health!
By May, I remember taking a walk with my now sister-in-law and talking about it, realizing I had never really asked God to be in control and acknowledge His timing was best in my life. I knew this is what my heart should say and think, yet I really wasn’t putting my heart into the words I was writing in my prayer journal. I was saying them because I knew it was how I should feel, yet I really didn’t give it over to Him.
From that point on, I decided to embrace the wait. I’m confident God uses these waiting periods to work within us, to somehow put pieces together within us or around us to make our lives better in the long run. When God puts a delay in our life, He is doing it intentionally, lovingly, and purposefully.
While waiting on God can be a challenge, scripture reminds us to take courage. Psalms 31:24 tell us, “Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord.” Courage and waiting, y’all, should go hand in hand. God knows that I am a control freak, and that me waiting upon His timing and His will scares that you know what right out of me.
Yet time and time again in my life- from finding a husband or job or house- God proves to me that He uses that wait time to build me into a stronger, better version of who He wants and designed me to be.
The hard part, y’all, is worshipping through the waiting. I can remember being very intentional with this this summer- praising God for the fact that I wasn't pregnant, that I could be with my husband more, for the extra time to be spontaneous, for the time to be able to finish a Master’s and start a blog without a newborn to distract me from these things.
All summer, I kept John Waller’s son, While I’m Waiting, in my head. Click the song title to here it yourself, but the lyrics I love so much are these:
I’m waiting on You, Lord. And I am hopeful. I’m waiting on You, Lord. Though it is painful but patiently, I will wait.
Waiting is apart of God’s plan and timing for our lives. It cannot be bypassed. We cannot always get a quick fix for His plans for our life. Throiugh waiting, He uses the time to grow us toward spiritual maturity, to sharpen us, to strengthen us for what lies ahead.
Don’t waste the wait, rather embrace the wait, y’all. God loves proving His faithfulness. It will be worth it.
For years now, I have put dates and prayer requests beside scriptures in my bible. Then, as I come back to them through devotionals and sermons, it is so eye-opening to see how and when God answers prayers and check them off as I rediscover them. These past few months, I’ve been able to check off fertility several times, further emphasizing to me how He is in control and how it was worth the wait. Here’s my advice to you in your period of waiting:
Write down your prayers and concerns either in your bible beside relevant scripture or in a journal. Be sure to date them so you can go back and see how/when God answered your prayers.
Ask God to give you an attitude of patience, something I certainly had to ask for time and time again.
Instill confidence in God, that He is in control and He is working in you in ways you cannot imagine
Talk to others about your waiting. Having support around you to encourage you to stay courageous can make a world of a difference through the process.
He is faithful. He is almighty. He is in control. Don’t forget that. And I’ll see y’all tomorrow!
Healthy Happy Texan
I'm a Foodie, Fitness Instructor, and Follower of Christ. Add a passion for teaching others, dark chocolate, bacon, and dogs -- and that's me in a box.
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